i often wonder if when you dream about someone, if they feel it a little bit. if a part of them knows. even though they’re not there in your head experiencing it, maybe dreams are as good as reality for the person dreaming. a kind of temporary bizarre reality. but if i feel everything, even if it is a little less, does it matter that its not real? or maybe the point of these real physical experiences is to be experiencing that with those other people, not just by yourself. isn’t that why we crave human contact?
for once in my life, i’m not distracted by my feelings for anyone. i can actually focus and be motivated to do what’s really important for me. not that my emotions and urges went away, but they’re just not overpowering me. i have to say it’s kind of a relief.
